#23

Not the first time I write a blog. I've had more than one in the past 4 years. Most of them were a pro-anorexia diary. But this one isn't.

I'm having this blog, because I'm struggling with some feelings I can't tell my friends about. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have I can't trust on this one.

I have a boyfriend, he is so sweet and good for me. The life we have together is amazing. Ok.. Not everything is perfect, I'll promise you. I love him and he loves me. I'm not the most difficult girlfriend, and he knows that. 

But lately, I've got feelings for an other boy. He is younger than me, still lives with his parents and is far from having a livestyle I'm having right now. And yes. I kissed him. And I feel guilty. It almost seems than my feelings for my boyfriend are flowing away. But I still love him. I've known that boy for 2 years now. But we haven't been contacting for a while. Saterday, everthing just turned 360 degrees. I text him al day long, I'm seeing him about every other day. And now, I miss him. 

I don't wanna loose myself in him. But I am. And I'm having a hard time out here. I hope someone listens and helps me.